Look Past My Chair

second attempt... for lack of a better title

2009-08-18T15:16:00.000-07:00

As I was rolling back from Starbucks today, I was thinking about my last sad and pathetic (and yes, I know, unfinished) post. It's funny, when I'm sitting by myself and just letting my mind wander, I think in a pretty eloquent way, if I do say so myself. But the second I sit down at my computer, all of that eloquence goes right out the window. I can't put into words the annoying feeling I get as I sit staring at an empty computer screen.

Have you ever noticed that writers on TV, blog or otherwise, are never lacking in material and have ideas flowing out of them the second they sit down to write? Even if they are scripted to have writer's block, something happens and, miraculously, their writer's block disappears. And it always sounds so damn good. Not fair! This is always the case for one Ms. Carrie Bradshaw from the HBO show "Sex and the City" (one of my guilty pleasures, I admit it!), who is never lacking in new and insightful thoughts on men and their interactions with women. She is, I'll admit again, who I was channeling in my last failed attempt at a post. I was going to write about how, when it came to romance, I really didn't have much to write about. But as I sat there thinking of what to write, I realized that there wasn't anyone who read my blog that wanted to read some sob story about my non-love life anyways.

I must admit (wow, I am over using that word) that I try to shrug it off that I'm single and have never had any real prospect, but it is getting harder for me to do. I don't want to sound like some co-dependent woman who has to have a man in her life. I don't... as evident by my living an incredibly successful and full life for the past almost-20 years. I'm just saying that it'd be nice to find someone special. Maybe sophomore year will be the year...

men... or not!

2009-08-11T21:33:00.000-07:00

I was going to write this all about how I don't have a man in my life and how much that sucks and that I don't know why, but I realized that probably none of you give a crap! LOL

Oh well!

Instead, I'll say that I can't believe that start my second year of college in 2 weeks!!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Where does the time go?

So clearly, I am in DESPERATE need of topic ideas... Please, inspire me!

Official sophmore!

2009-05-08T23:43:00.000-07:00

That's right... I am officially done with my first year of college! I have nothing else to say... I am completely speechless! :-D

Two weeks left...

2009-04-27T17:25:00.001-07:00

O-M-G! How can there only be two weeks of school left?! Where did the year go? It feels like yesterday that I was still homesick all the time and couldn't find any of my classes... Now I'm coming to the end of 1/5 of my time here at Cal. I can't believe it... I need another month! Probably won't be hearing from me for a while, as all my time will be spent coloring myself in, studying the psychology of culture, and presenting on men, sex, and the city...

Talk to you all later!

It's gettin' hot in here!

2009-04-21T15:42:00.000-07:00

And out there! And everywhere for that matter! LOL I mean, I'm (i must interject that This Is Why I'm Hot by Mims just started playing... coincidence?) all for warm weather, but this is ridiculous... even for me! This is the kind of heat where you don't want to do anything but sit in front of a fan and eat ice cream all day. But alas, I am sitting in my room at my computer, with every window and door open, an open notebook on my lap that I should be writing my Cultural Psychology questions in... oh well! Which makes me wonder, why is it called 'senioritis'? I'm only a first year and I'm already feeling antsy! I think a more adiquate name would be 'summeritis' -- same basic concept, applies to procrastinating and unmotivated people everywhere! :-D I must add (for my mom, who will start reading my blog soon) that I'm still doing my work and will still be graduating in 4-5 years... ;-)

I will now go attempt to be productive for 30 minutes until going to the gym, where I might actually die from this heat!

A little change...

2009-04-19T16:04:00.000-07:00

Is always good! I was sitting in my room the other day thinking how boring (and quite frankly drab!) my blog looked. I felt a bright, colorful change was in order... It is almost summer, after all! So, here I am sitting in my room listening to Summer Rain by Milk Inc making my blog look more summer-y! Hope you all approve!

Aside from my seasonal blog and the BEAUTIFUL weather we are having here in Berkeley, Ca, a sure-fire sign that summer is upon us is all the new movies coming out! Most importantly, of course... 17 AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Zac Effron=yummy!

College!

2009-04-02T20:37:00.000-07:00

Holy crap! I can't believe I'm almost done with my first year of college! I gotta say though, it has been AWESOME! That's not to say that it has all been easy though, because it definitely hasn't. Now, this may come as a shock to some people, but I don't transition well. So, as you may have guessed moving out, coming into college, meeting all new people, and on top of it all, figuring out how to manage my life, was... intense to say the least. But everything I was told by my older friends, my family, and especially my mom (even though I didn't believe any of them at the time!) was true. That this transition gets easier with time. You find your niche and Berkeley's 25,000 (or some other obscenely large number) undergrad campus doesn't seem so big and overwhelming anymore. On top of meeting people through class, study groups, clubs and friends, some of my best friends I've met by sheer proximity. Living in the dorms was by far the best decision I've made (besides coming to Berkeley, of course!) I've met so many cool people, some of whom are now my best friends. When I first told people about applying and going to college, a surprising number of them assumed I'd be living at home. I truly believe that living in the dorms has made my first year in college exponentially better!

soccer!

2008-05-18T22:26:00.000-07:00

I play this sport called Power Soccer. It's soccer played in power wheelchairs on indoor basketball courts. There are four players from each team on the court at a time: a ball handler, goalie, and two wing people. I've been playing for going on five years. It's really fun to be a part of a team. I just got promoted to Division 1 which is kind of the equivalent of Varsity. My teammates and I are really starting to gel as a team. We're getting to the point where we can kind of read each others' minds and tell, just by looking at one another, where we are going and what we want everyone else to do. We just had three games on Saturday and we won all three! We have our national tournament in June in Alabama and our chances to take home the first place trophey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-03-29T02:38:00.000-07:00

I GOT INTO CAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

College...

2008-03-20T21:21:00.000-07:00

So, it's that wonderful time of the year where all the seniors in high school are hearing back from perspective colleges. Most of the time, I don't really think that much of it, it's just, "Oh ya, college next year..." But every once in a while, it hits me. This time next year, I won't be where I am right now, in any way what so ever. Most likely I'll be in new city, living on my own, and figuring out who I am as an independent adult (this is my first "post-turning 18 post, by the way!). The other thing I often find hard to believe, now that I have received 3 rejection letters from schools, is how a school can just reject you! It sucks to think that they don't want you to be a part of their student body. I did, however, just get accepted to UCSB, which is the first school I've heard back from that I would actually consider going to... I can't wait to hear from Cal and San Diego State! Those are my top two choices... cross your fingers everybody!

suggestions...

2008-03-01T13:30:00.000-08:00

so, jed, this is mostly to you, since you're the only person who i know actually reads my blog. But anyone else who reads this (yay and thank you!) is welcome to give ideas also...

i'm relatively new at this whole blog thing and i don't really know what to write about...
so, please give me suggestions of what you'd like to know about or hear my perspectives on!

thank you!

Me rite now!!!!!!!!!

2008-02-27T22:59:00.001-08:00

College. Taking the first "step" out into the world on my own. Scary as hell... but I'm excited! Excited to see what and who else is out there waiting for me to meet! And if I met a really hot guy along the way, well... I'D BE COOL WITH THAT TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's a pretty weird concept actually... leaving what is the only life you've ever known to go somewhere new, with people who are in a new place and struggling to find themselves just like you. It gives you a freedom to re-invent yourself and become anyone you want to be!

I really want to write more... be really insightful and stuff, but I've been working on this for a few days and this is all I've got! Ah, well... more next time!

Alphabet... FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-07-19T15:39:00.000-07:00

here is my alphabet made out of other objects... only two weeks late!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TAAAAAAAAHHHHH DAAAAAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2nd and 3rd days

2007-07-03T11:22:00.000-07:00

yesterday we went to the church and cemetery. here's a picture i took of a stained glass window through some pillars.

these are some of the graves

today we made pinhole cameras. i can't take any credit for this, i mostly watched while lynn made the camera. so here is a picture i took of her pinhole camera.

then we shot with our pinhole cameras. ok, i'm not gonna lie... I HATE PINHOLE CAMERAS!!! well, i shot anyway and i'll post those tomorrow!

Here We Go!

2007-07-02T09:54:00.000-07:00

First day at CCA!(hey, that rhymes!) I'm wicked stocked to be here, getting my photo on!

Here are my first pictures for our self portait project (taken for me by my classmate Emma)